It's been a little more than a year since I decided to really work hard towards being mentally healthy. It's such a learning process. It's all so new to me. I take my medication and go to therapy and I recently started writing a journal of my daily experiences.
I have had manic symptoms for the past couple weeks and I am trying to stay in control of my symptoms and not let these symptoms get worse. At first I was very discouraged. I felt that I was taking a step forward and three steps back. It's so hard to function when you can't stay focused on one task. The sleepless nights don't make the situation any better. I decided to keep taking my medication, keep going to therapy and double up on my acupuncture appointments.
I was thinking about something that someone in The Living Room told me when I expressed my feelings of discouragement. She told me that I've had manic episodes where I made some pretty careless mistakes and the consequences where almost too hard to deal with. I have been reckless when I've been manic. At least this time I was aware and working hard to keep my symptoms under control. She was right! I didn't go on any shopping sprees, I wasn't driving drunk or working until I got sick.
The fact that I am aware of my symptoms and working hard to keep them under control is something to be very proud of. Whenever you feel discouraged or frustrated with the way your recovery is going, think about how far you've come and how things could be way worse. I am proud of how much I am accomplishing and am determined to keep working hard to be mentally healthy. I am proud of your effort as well. Don't give up! I'm rooting for you!
Written by Liliana Nicholas